There are so many things I wish I could do. They say “you control your destiny”, which to some extent is true but then again these are the same people who tell you to be considerate. You know the “what will others say?”, “what about your family?” questions. Well to be honest, all I want to reply is “who the fuck cares?” I really just want to break free from the status quo. I hate being constricted to the expectations of others for my life. I want to go out and do what I want like a normal 21 year old.


Many of my friends can testify that I lead a different lifestyle than people my age. People my age go out and travel, they do things because they want to, they make decisions for themselves and they fuck who they want to!! I don't get to do all that. I'm not saying I wanna be carefree all the time and be a big time slut, I'm just saying....no screaming, "let me be who the fuck i wanna be". I am so damn tired of being that good girl who conforms! I'm such a conformists, its pathetic. The thing is, I know what to do to follow my own path, but i just don't have the guts. 


I think I need some guidance :/


Better yet maybe a wake up call!